A while back, I had asked a friend of mine about her Yoga Teacher Training experience.
My friend offered a wealth of information and insight into what I should expect when embarking on this journey, but there were two words in particular that she used to describe her experience that really piqued my interest: Life changing.
Wow. “Life changing”. Those were some pretty strong words.
Aside from one of the obvious reasons for entering the Yoga Teacher Training Program – to graduate and eventually teach yoga – this whole “life changing” experience was sounding like a pretty good bonus.
I was intrigued, I was hopeful – but I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t skeptical.
Perhaps it was my old “glass half empty” tendencies creeping up to rear their ugly heads but I was not totally convinced that this experience would, in fact, change my life. I was looking to make some changes in my life, no doubt – to take a step away from my sometimes pessimistic frame of mind and my propensity for approaching just about every little minutia in life with a “sleeping with one eye open” mindset – but to think that a mere two months would change 38 years of habits and conditioning? It was something I just couldn’t quite wrap my head around.
But reflecting on these past two months, I can honestly say I do feel that my life has, in fact, been changed by this experience. This training has taught me so much more than I had anticipated – it has taught me life lessons, either knowingly or unknowingly, that I will carry with me throughout my life:
buy Depakote cheap It has taught me to have more faith in myself and others.
buy genuine provigil It has taught me to turn unfavorable situations into lessons.
It has taught me that I am far more capable than I give myself credit for.
It has taught me to not place judgments so quickly – people can surprise you.
It has taught me humility.
It has taught me patience.
It has taught me compassion.
It has taught me forgiveness.
It has taught me tolerance.
And – perhaps most importantly – it has taught me to let go.
In these past two months, I have cried. A lot. And I’m not a crier. I’ve cried because there has been so much emotional baggage that I’ve held onto, when I finally chose to sift through that baggage it was a lot to handle.
Throughout this training, I finally realized that the one person who has been holding me back from my growth was me. My habit of holding on to things that didn’t serve me – in the form of grudges, judgments (against myself and others), thoughts, bad relationships, etc – had, for far too long, caused me to be my own worst enemy.
But now, thanks to this training, I’ve decided to not hold myself back any longer.
I am so incredibly grateful to each and every one of my teachers as well as my classmates, because whether they know it or not, they have helped me to learn each and every one of these lessons. And while I may not have outwardly expressed this to them (because this type of expression is something I am still working on), I hope that one day they will know this, and know how grateful I am to have shared this experience with them.
Reflecting back on these past two months I can honestly say that not only have I grown as a person in more ways than I could have ever imagined, I’ve also gotten to know myself much more deeply than I ever thought possible. For far too long, I’ve felt disconnected with myself – not really knowing who I was or who I wanted to be. I finally, for the first time, feel as if I’m beginning to learn who I am.
And finally, these last two months have shown me that it is possible to change your life as long as you’re willing to put in the effort to do so. Am I suddenly a completely different person? Not quite, and nor would I want to be (so for those close to me, don’t worry – I’m still the fun-loving, one-liner delivering goofball that you’ve come to know and love). But I have been given the tools that will allow me to make the changes I want to make that, before my training, seemed out of reach. I have a long road to travel and many changes I still want to make, but as a very wise person once told me, “It’s about the journey, not the destination”.